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I remember when you were small

You wanted to be so tall

You were 12 and I was 8 

in need of trouble you weren't a minute late

At night you would look up at the stars

they were your favorite by far

You had 1 Dream;

"I want to be an astronaut"

No, no instead

You wanted to be shot

 The times You were so sad and had fear

You never shed that one single tear.

But now as I saw you all grown up

 your tears spilled and would fill up a cup

I don't know when you took that noose 

Alone and shaky

why was it you, that I had to loose

As you wanted to end your life 

you always thought about taking that knife

From being in Band

to holding a noose in your hand

You were great and happy

Why did it have to be

Don't leave me in time of trouble

Since you left lets make suicide a double

On your birthday 

There is no one to sit behind the cake

its just your spirit here to stay

Please come back 

with your goldfish crackers and sandwiches as snacks 

I miss our memories

Wanted to grow up together and see

The stars don't twinkle

when you are gone

the cupcake doesn't drop its last sprinkle

from when you eat it

The tree that we planted where you were found

hasn't been touched and  still in bound

As its leaves fall

I remember when you were small

You wanted to be tall

You wanted to leave earth and visit the stars

and when you left you didn't see those stars

you left me with scars.