O.C.D.

When i wrote this, i had to take a step back and reflect on every decision i had made. The mistakes, the joy, and everything in between. This is that reflection.

I didn't plan this, left some sort of death kiss

No nefarious schemes, no atrocious plot lines

Blood letter of confession to your obsession 

Under a spell of hypnosis, so mysterious

Carved into my chest the accolade bleeds

"I know that you'll let me breathe"

While i'm berated and instigated to drink 

In honor of the voices inside my head

I look into the mirror to reflect 

On the embarrassments that I've created

I'm stuck in this intervention with me myself and I

Just as the weather passes by and the clouds clear

And i see the sun and moon share the sky

So now i feel i'm reviving the beautiful disguise 

Only to relive the lie and deliver the message

That i am alive

Perhaps i'll break and destroy you

But i forget that it puts you before me

So i'll let it be, i'll let it go 

Remember the dead are listening down below

I'm now at the place where waves meet

The ground sinks underneath my feet

And the sound is the chorus of orchestrated melodic symphonies 

I've figured out the saddening epiphany 

"you created me, now kill me" 

So at the end of the day when we are ripe and old

In chairs with a blanket because we complain about the cold

I know we will be world's apart

But when my memories suppress 

And a mind that's digressed 

I'll remember where you were at the start

Where you remain in my heart

But know i won't commit suicide 

It's not a lie that i'm aware

Of when and where i'll die

Reviews

[Maria]

This was truly deep, and with much meaning, underneath, more for you than any of us, I am sure. Yet I can feel the emotions in this as well. This type of writing is good for our souls, that I am sure. So keep it up and keep on moving onward. Great job.

[Najam Us Saher]

Flow of thoughts is consistent. Nicely expressed.