A Dark and Deep Reflection of One’s Lost Self

Looking for death’s invitation

I’ve lost my self righteous connection

With the living

Self sacrifice and giving to save humanity

Within my civil liberties

Has drained every ounce of my life blood

From my spoken words

I chose to use too conflict

Taking on the burden

Of my inner subconscious regretful pain

From witnessing a decline in social change

I advocated to add value a too anyone

In a desperate situation who had to shout

For serendipity towards receiving a life altering inheritance

Beyond a shadow of a doubt this occurrence

Has now pushed me to the brink of checking out of this life

But my number hasn’t been called yet

In death’s lottery

My own personal vault

Of discrepancies

Await

Yet on what date will I expire

I have no idea

I’m tired of so-called people

Pretending to care for my suffrage

I want to utilize my resources and energy

To maintain my essence in the midst of their presence

On account of me

Becoming a visual embodiment

Of a broken mirror with a voice

Channeling and conveying the depravity

Of what was once my true valid character

Yet I’ve turned the corner

To embrace where I’ll be lying six feet under

And befriending a morbid ally

Whose in disguise as death’s mediator

To bring my mind to rest

Forever

I’ve now arrived at death’s doorstep

I’ve lived with no regrets

Encompassing the fact that my spirit feels like

I’ve never left the foray of my yesterdays to begin with

Reviews

[Nathan]

Stunning and dark. This is certainly a well-written work. The emotion literally seeps out of this poem. I love it!

[The Random Writings Of ..]

Wow, this is a very dark, sad piece. Very well written. There is so much said in this piece and so much to ponder. This is very written in a very somber undertone. This is indeed a deep reflection over a life time, and the ending, is a peaceful, coming to terms, even if life didn't turn out the way it was supposed to. I really enjoyed this piece. I know you have read a lot of my work, so you know that I can relate to this on many levels. Excellent write, and thank you for sharing.

[ms. barrie]

Achingly profound, beautifully written...with grace and eloquence and flow. I enjoyed this. Added to my favs. Thanks for sharing!