My Life

Sweat rolling from the grindstone, plodded by my misery

I ponder my own existence, my recent trial and error with debauchery

Authentication of my consciousness, the morality of my conduct

my temptation of annihilation ever present, ever capable

Why am I here, is this my life, do I have freedom from external control

Look and you will see indignity swept over a lost soul  

If fire is the devil’s only friend,

the travesty of my character will never mend

broken and battered and twisted by fate

my destiny’s in by the setting of a date

may have stayed to long superseded my heart

nullified my vows till death do us part

As long as I live I will not see the day

the pain that I caused will ever go away     

Thoughtlessly paid a hefty gambler’s debt,

a foolhardy game of Russian roulette

not holding good cards but played those well

good intentions paved my road to hell

Choices I made lost me the best friend I’d had

choosing a bottle of whiskey, was like placing a gun to my head

Depth of my life, now the life in my years

escalated my thoughts, intensified my fears    

not that it would end too soon, I’ve just waited to long to begin

the years as they passed my patience wore thin

beginning to fear that beginning to end nothing but strife

lost all that I’d had, cursed by my life

 

Reviews

[angel]

Wow, i can feel the pain from this. I love how you put yourself out there. Keep writing!
xxangel

[Tru2aT]

You are beyond talented with your use of the written language. Your honesty is covered by a mysterious tint just thick enough to keep the reader guessing at what your reality behind the words really is. At best we can only guess at the truth. I admire your abilities, and envy your bravery for posting it!

[Hello, Goodbye]

I love the honesty that you display here. There is a candid clarity about the expressions and intentions delivered. The illustrations you paint are full of impact and the concept as a whole works entirely. I love the flow and rhythm used.. and you seem to have fine control over what you want to say and how you say it.. I love to see that, particularly because I myself, struggle with having my work flow with a melodic tune. Great stuff..