Journey to Learning my Self WorthA Poem by becca rocksA poem I wrote depicting some of the struggles I have gone through with learning how to love myself, and how I still am on that path but going strong :)I don’t know what to write My voice feels as though it is tugging to be heard To speak my voice But I am only one person, who hasn’t learned her worth I wasn’t told my thoughts were important To the point where I was drowning in my own lack of self worth A rock of anxiety is pushed down Suffocating my body Because I don’t feel worth it Growing thinner to fit into a mold That once I am perfect Then I will be able to speak. But that never happens, As I grow thinner that rock grows bigger And when I gain; the rock grows bigger Here to say that I am a failure. I am a failure To the mold of our society But then I think, “so is everyone else” As the truth tugs at my vocal cords They start to loosen Allowing my personal power to show through To be seen But my image is not of empowerment It is meek and scared and hidden in the waves of everyday life The drowning sense of my ego Fights to rise above those waves To be glistening by the light of the sun But that light is petrifying The idea of being seen throws me back into those very waves That wash over my personality My sense of being But my thoughts are of those of the sun and the moon In which both male and female energy resides. My soul is not a woman neither a man I am a human being With labels that create friction within my own psyche But how does one grow When anything one does is thrown into a basket of labels Where a person is able to pick out any slip And say this is who you are, because this is how I see you. My inner battle is constantly fighting Am I too loud, am I too quiet Am I wearing too much make up or not enough? Am I true to myself, or not at all? How do I know when I am enough? Where self-love is buried in the crevices of the mountains Where the peeks mark societies acceptance But nobody can live that high up As you try The lack of oxygen brings you down Lungs collapsing into desperation And soon the paleness of your skin dampens your inner light Where we need to go is inward To fall into those crevices To see the beauty that resides within All the scares and the melting tears from the mountaintops mix together To find that hidden authenticity of our hearts To find that inner light That makes the cheeks grow rosy with passion and joy Flowers grow from the dirt Love grows from within Through life’s twist and turns The mountaintops will always be there I just hope one day I will be able to fly to those mountaintops And be heard With the sun glistening behind me My cheeks rosy with self worth The Love growing inside me Allowing oxygen to flow through me Filling up my crushed lungs So I can capture some of that light And help spread it through the crevices of the mountain range So many more flowers can bloom And find their own inner light Where we can fly in unity Of self acceptance And love for all So we can help each other grow Instead of waiting for one another to fall Lets help push each other up Water each other with kindness from our hearts So those tears from the mountaintops Turn into tears of joy Showering down on all the flowers that have yet to find their inner light I don’t know what to write My voice now grows bigger and brighter Yet I’m still stuck in limbo There is so much uncertainty in our lives But as we help water each other Spreading the tears of our vulnerabilities I believe we will win this fight Of showering our inner light Of being that very sun In which so many fear Because we are all worth it © 2016 becca rocks |
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Added on February 4, 2016 Last Updated on February 4, 2016 Tags: poem, self worth, spoken word, love, positivity, personal growth |