Me, The Monster

A piece of poetry written beneath the stars. Steeped in internal frustrations while learning the life of the vagrant and cooling my body to the bone. Let the warmth forever die.

I am the monster.
How else could this story end?
After all,
You are the princess--the beautiful and infallible.
You will walk,
Through a thousand miles of s**t,
But, I will be dammed if you don't come out clean.
Smelling, still, of your laundry detergent and orange body wash.

I am ugly and unlovable.
Easy to use,
And easier to forget.
I love unconditionally...
As best as I can.
But this love will be overlooked, instead,
They will see naught but the wretched appearance that contains it.
A monster is always the enemy.

I am wrong.
For who else could be?

I will become what they hate.
I will transform to fit their desires.
To fit their bastardized views.
I was kind.
I was full of compassion and love.
But let the cold of hatred and loss cool my heart.
Let it change me.

You wanted a monster?
You wanted a scapegoat?
A plaything to strike without consequence?

Then a monster I shall be.

Reviews

[Bare trees]

That I'll show you mentality can be quite common. I know because I've done it myself to a smaller extent. that "you've created a monster" feeling is purveyed well here.

[Joshua W. Harris]

Thank you very much for stopping in and checking out some of my work. =]
I am glad that the feeling was well conveyed, and that you felt the piece while reading it. I look forward to hearing more, and checking out some of your own stuff too! ^__^

[jacob erin-cilberto]

sometimes our environment and the people in it can turn us into an inverted version of what we started out to be.
kind, gentle, human, giving....we become untrusting, untrustworthy, scoundrels who hate rather than love...we feel abandoned and abuse and then we do it ourselves...
we become what we hate and loathe ourselves.

[Joshua W. Harris]

It is a tragedy to be sure. To watch oneself deteriorate into what we hate. To be changed by those close to you and be filled with so much darkness. Thank you so much for your kind review. =]