Friend of the family...

They are not mine...his and hers..seed. I was there, been there..still am..but they are not mine. He showed me that.

 

I am a friend of the family

Nothing more

Not seed giver

Nor seed carrier

 

Just a lover

Past tense of her

Of them always

 

Being told to stop

What’s been going on for years

In the dark

But not the closet

My love

For them

Her…to

 

Give him time

To adjust

To accept

 

F**k that

 

Reality is

I’m here, been here

For years

 

I’ve dealt with him

For years

And here I am

Sliding in back doors

And grinning

Thru Spanish inquisitions

About things you know

Are true

So why bother asking

 

You know my name

Have known for years

But now you want to erase

Me

 

F**k that

 

Why doesn’t he accept

The truth

They love me

Have said so

Show this

Calling me

Telling me

 

I spend time because

I want to

They spend time

because they want to

And now because of my time

With her

He wants to say no more time

With them

 

Why punish them

Because you mad at her right?

 

It’s over right?

Been over right?

Years right?

 

Or am I wrong and

Other s**t been going on

Cause I’m not understanding

The anger over

Some past tense s**t

The hatred over two year old licks

 

F**k that

 

Be gone man

Be grown man

And let bygones be bygones

And let this love we share

Carry on

 

I ain’t with her

Ain’t trying to be with her

I want to be with them

I’m trying to be with them

 

And these tears flowing

Yeah these tears flowing

Because I’m left with no other

Measure

Of showing

My hurt

My anger

And no it’s not displaced

I’m not displaced

Been here for years

Stressing been here for years

 

Christmas was me

Remember

Never met

Just pictures

And phone calls

Shared cartoons

And giggles

Me

And

Them

 

And when we met

It was love, pure love

Tarnished slightly

Due to her and I

But we moved past that

Maybe not her and I

But she understands

They and I

Are one

 

And when she threatened

The s**t he stating

I didn’t flinch

Didn’t sweat it

Cause she know

That they and I

Are one

 

Last memories for awhile

Laughter over sandwiches

And gap toothed confessions

Of I’ve been waiting all year

For this

 

So I know I can wait

All year for this

 

I have no choice

Friend of the family

Rules

For being a friend

Yea

A friend…

 

Reality

Reviews

[Kat Williams]

Yeah it is what it is...

[Jay W Valentine]

S**t. Wow. In between every stanza, I can hear the words. I can hear the problems. I can see the love and I can feel the pain, the anger....everything. In between. There's so much here that isn't said that should be. Hell, that can't be said. It's tragic. It's deep. But then again, it is what it is.

[d]

Daaaaayum this struck a cord with me...it was like reading the pages of a journal condensed into one heartfelt piece...felt for sure...