Darkness

A poem I wrote months ago when I was in a bad state of mind, but it can be for anyone who feels as I did then, thank you.

Lay awake in a bed that's the same as everyday,
In a dark, small room wondering where I'm gonna go today,
Thinking to myself, life can't be all made up as the life we live is all determined by us,
Yet I'm afraid of this life so I hide in my head wanting everything to be alright, but I'm surrounded by death.
So take me out tonight, that I don't have to think no more,
It hurts to feel only disappointment and sadness,
Live my life, and feel what I feel, only then can you understand the weights I am bounded to.
Take a look, and tell me what you see, nothing impressive I guarantee,
A heart made of gold that died out long ago and rusted over, because of the lies I've been told,
Don't tell me I'm a good person, I'm done hiding myself to the world and instead want acceptance,
Only then can I break the cage inside and let the darkness out because that's where my soul resides,
And let me be free of my sins that can only be forgiven off the limb of a tree branch.