Her Insanity

While she sought the smile of angels 

Darkness called her soul

Surrounded by many

Yet still managed to feel so alone

The voices were calling

Begging her to come

To sit in their circle and have some fun

The demons they gave her blades

And the monsters they gave her pills

And she took them reluctantly

For it was never her will

They took her to ledges and encouraged her to jump

And when she refused to they gave her a gun

She couldn't pull the trigger because she didn't want to die

And every night she cried herself to sleep often wondering why

She'll be surrounded by her friends and faking a smile

When inside of her head a war is raging inside

Its her against her demons

Yet every time they win

It's just too much to bear

They're driving her insane

She laid in the bath tub her head submerged

And they told her to stay under just a little longer

And just as she was about to fall into a permanent slumber

She came back up and the tears started falling from her eyes

And the voices jeered her as she cried

She stood on a chair the noose around her neck

But she couldn't seem to jump she wasn't ready yet

She had the knife in her hands ready to stab

And because she couldn't bring herself to do it 

She got so mad

Every car that drove by when she walked down the street

She wanted to jump in front of

But just couldn't seem to move her feet

You see, she finds it so conflicting

That her mind is against her desire to live

Yet stops her whenever she decided to fall into the abyss

She just wants peace

She just wants happiness

She just wants to be rid of her sadness

To be rid of Her Insanity

Author's Note

Ignore lack of punctuation.

Reviews

[Monatora]

Whoa. I don’t know what to say. There’s so much feeling in this poem. I don’t really have any criticism or constructive advice, all I can say is well done. And, at the risk of sounding melodramatic, you seem to have captured the essence of suffering. I hope you’re okay :)

[OutSpoken]

I am truly okay now.