This is what it feels like

this is how it fuckn feels to lose the love you always wanted and never wanted to lose

I'm spiraling down,
Further down,
Into a pit of depression and anger,
Killing me inside,
Taking the things I care about,
Making my life harder,
Cutting all ties with my former life,
Why do I want to feel dead inside?

It's a wall of pain and uncertainty,
Realizing when you've made the mistakes,
Knowing you're not worthy of anyone's kindness,
Or love,
And you stand there willing to throw it all away,
The pit of depression drags you down further,
The Scotch fills the pit,
Your thoughts become darker,
You're steps away from crying,
Dying inside,

This is what losing love feels like.

Author's Note

this is what it fucking feels like to lsoe your love MY LOVE!
if you have never been so damned lucky at loseing that fuckn love then consider yourself warned beacuse when it happens! you will feel just like me!