How it Felt

This describes a dark part of my past when I was in a very unhealthy relationship.

I remember how it felt to lose my mind, 
I could never just leave the past behind, 
I wanted more, I just wanted it all. 
I had nothing to grab hold of; I felt myself fall 
I remember how it felt, cold and alone, 
Sitting and waiting by the telephone; 
Waiting, waiting, waiting for you, 
waiting for you to save me was all I could do 
Using a disguise to help show my smile, 
I waited for you for quite a while. 
But you never came back like I thought you would 
It never went the way I thought it should, 
and just like that, it was over; you were gone 
and just like that, I could not see the dawn. 

Now I never sit here waiting anymore 
Not ever like I once did before, 
Because I remember how it felt to lose my mind, 
I remember all I wasted through all that time. 
But now that you're gone, I can finally see, 
Just by walking out, you did, however, save me.