I Hate that I Can't Hate You

About remembering and letting go, with mixed emotions.

From the time you said you would love me forever

And the times my heart was as light as a feather,

To the many times you broke me in two,

I hate that I can't hate you.

The days you promised the world to me,

Made me dream of how happy we'd be,

The things that you did; the things you still do

Make me hate that I can't hate you.

I fell for you long ago,

I gave my heart as well as my soul,

You took it and left me far behind

And so far, you've crossed every line.

I loved you then, but I never knew

That one day I'd hate that I can't hate you.

So you come back and look in my eyes,

You beg and plead me to forgive your lies.

Am I that naive?

Should I believe, that what you say is true?

Oh, how I hate that I can't hate you!

So this is the day.

This is when I walk away.

I don't look back as you cry my name,

And though you seem full of shame,

Seeing you cry seems brand new,

Because crying is what I usually do...

But although I can't hate, I can't love you.

Author's Note

This was an emotional writing for me...it seems inconsistent with its rhymes, but the feelings are there.