3:00 am

The moment that I die

will it be a moment such as this

 

with true friends by my side

and my heart in my chest

 

or will my heart lay burst on the floor

bleeding the colors of my rainbow

 

blue, purple, green dust

falls off my skin as time goes by

 

nowhere near and nowhere far

the end is all around me

 

I feel it in my bones

as my body begins to shake

 

my body tingles as my mind goes numb

as I hit the floor without feeling

 

my guradian angel cries for my loss

as I struggle for a breath

 

I can't stand this anymore

living the life I live

 

I try so hard

but I never change

my soul can't take it

 

my blade is sharp

as I make my decision

 

to end my life

or not.