I've Finally Realized.

i've finally come to the realization

that im okay without you

at first i was fooling myself

and trying to find ways to hurt you more to show

that i wasnt hurting at all

i shouldnt have posted and said somethings

and for that im sorry

you've been coming to my head alot lately

im praying your okay

hoping that your safe

i honestly feel okay now these past few weeks

its getting easier knowing that you dont care about me anymore

its getting easier knowing you dont love me at all

its getting easier knowing that you've moved on to better

its all getting easier

i honestly think now if i were to meet you in the street

id stop and say hi instead of turning the opposite way

if i was to see you driving id turn and wave with a huge smile

id give you a hug and make sure your alright

id want to hear all about your life and everything thats happened

id want to hear all about you

buhh idk if youd want to hear about me

or let alone tell me about yourself

ive hurt you so much

that much is true

buhh i can tell now you dont much care

im a forgotten memory

a passing phase

gone with the wind so to speak

never to be invited in again

i get that and ive come to terms with it

i must say im okay with all of that now

i just want you to know how sorry i am for all of it

i hope you can forgive me

even if you never tell me

forgive me in your heart please

i hope one day we can be friends again

you always listened and always cared

even when we were jus friends

if not though

if you've moved on

if you're done with me completely i totally understand

not everything can always go back to normal

i have to realize that

and i am, more and more that your never coming back

this may sound opposite of what i said before

buhh ive changed my life

ive changed myself

im jus a different person

a stronger and better person

i jus have to get used to the fact

you thought it was all a lie

you never believed one word i said

i have to get used to you not believing me

i jus have to get used to it

and i will

ill come to that realization too

its jus hard sometimes because i know what i said was true

buhh like i said

im all okay

i know all will be fine

i jus wanted you to know how sorry that i am

coming from my heart

im pouring out my heart to you

please believe me and let it be

buhh if you dont i understand

ill realize that someday too.

Reviews

[CryssinaKaiye]

awh ahah thanks : )

[hmarieee]

this is amazing! i can relate to this so much. having mixed feelings but sorrow is so overtaking. you are a really good writer and i encourage you to keep writing because you have alot of potential. very nice piece.