Just a feeling, based on reality.

The scrambled sound in the background of chatting is muffled, my ears are underwater.
The world is a blur, my minds spinning, eyes tripping, I'm dizzy, but I'm not quite blind.
My touch is slightly numbed, but my senses are heightened.
My mind is on fire, each emotion exploding. On the out side, I stay quiet.
On the out side.. my head stays low.
I'm always two steps behind.
I feel unconnected to reality. I feel my mind lagging again. My mentalities dragging behind me, my sanity's sagging. Deaths on my mind. To be dead.
I don't like the taste of the words my mind makes up.
I don't like the crave to be my opposite.
It's driving me crazy, loosing my mind every day and still tryna stay positive.