MoonlightA Story by elexus"With a moonlight so beautiful anyone would be entranced, why would I differ from the rest? truly stunning, ethereal in beauty. A grateful gesture became quite the obsession, but I regret none of it"‘Ah, there he is again. In the moonlight, I see HIM, "Moonlight."’ I looked out my window to
see him 7 floors below. Seeing him has become like a daily ritual for me. He doesn't hold any
ill will for me, and I KNOW this. Moonlight has helped me quite a few times.
I was almost hit by a car. But he saved me. I saw him after a seizure, and he
soothed me until help was gotten. I remember the first day I saw him. I was a
teenager. I could not take the emotional distress and pain my family caused, so
I was to end my life. As I was going to take the pills, I was met with such
pale skin that he looked like death walking; he was dressed head to toe in
black, with shoulder-length white hair and bright green eyes. He grabbed my
hand, shaking his head disapprovingly. All
I could do was cry,
I needed this. I wanted this, He did not know me, Or what I was
going through at that moment; I tried to take out everything I felt on this
boy. I was not reasoning, and I never thought to be fearful or paranoid. Such
feelings left me after the trauma I suffered. I felt numb other than anger. It
never occurred to me to ask, "where had he come from?" "Why was
he here with me?" "How did he get in?" I was running on pure adrenaline; it
intensified my rage and tears, My breathing getting more shallow. I did nothing but scream at him,
throat growing raw and voice rough,
as he watched me through pitful green eyes
filled with knowing. What did they
know? I despised
being pitied, yet
he did it so
openly. His eyes shone like glass; They reflected my frazzled and messy
appearance. I began to drown in them, taking in every aspect of myself, my red
eyes, unruly
hair, and dry
lips. Its as if I was not only looking in the mirror but at my soul. My anxiety
had risen to a new level,
and I hated
it. I quickly
looked away; still, the thoughts
of my end only grew. I grabbed
the pills. He once
again grabbed my hand in such a firm grip and looked
at me with a frown.
This went
on for a few
hours until I gave up. I wanted to sleep,
He wouldn't let me be at peace. Once it was seen
that I was giving up, he smiled at me. I felt nervous and looked away from his
gaze, and when
I looked
back, he was gone. I realized
he was saying, My life
meant something. I hadn't been that happy in years, and it felt great that
somebody
cared. That is how I met him, Moonlight.
I strived
to be someone important in life
because he
gave my life
meaning. I wanted him to see that I could
make something
of myself,
but it wasn't the easiest of
tasks. The sadness would often return; although He would come and make me feel
better, sometimes giving me a bright red rose or a black one; they were lovely. He let me
say things I couldn't say to others, He was always
mute, but his
eyes and expressions said a thousand
words.
Moonlight was a part of me,
My only real
family. Lately,
I have
noticed myself zoning out in class. I needed to be
someone, or Moonlight would be disappointed. I felt such a
heavy burden
and pressure
on my chest.
I wondered constantly,
was he angry at me? I never had to
worry for too long, because
I was met with
that charming smile,
as he called
me over. I think to myself, 'I love him.' 'I wonder whether he feels the same?
He sees me quite often, gives me such lovely flowers.' I was going to ask him.
My heart was pounding! I started to cross the street to him, but I was stopped, as a classmate called
me to return a book. I rushedly thanked
them, Then wanting to chat, they asked
me a few trivial things. I did
not want to be rude, but I had another objective. My mind was elsewhere; Moonlight looked pretty upset and
walked away when I looked over
my classmate's shoulder.
I panicked,
I needed
him. 'Please
don't leave
Moonlight.' I told
my classmate I needed to go home and rushed across the street. He was
nowhere in
sight. He hadn't appeared today. I wonder if he was busy? Yes that must have been it. For the first time
in years, anxiety and fear were beginning to overtake me. 'Would I lose him?'
He'd been
by my side
for years,
and he couldn't just disappear. The next few
weeks were Hell. He had become my drug. I needed that smile, those eyes, that
icy warm touch when he comforts me or praises me. I can't stop trembling,
sweating. I can't even sleep, eat or socialize. Where is he? D****t! Nothing feels real. 'Was he even real?' "of course, Of course! he was. I must be dreaming."
I answered my thoughts aloud. I looked in my mirror to see the distressed
figure looking back at me. I need him.
'I can make him see me; I know what to do to get his attention!' I went into my
closet and grabbed my
pocket
knife; I went to sit on my bed when I opened it. I see my desperate eyes
staring back at me. I dig into my skin, gritting my teeth as the painful pleasure comes over me.
'I need him' I began
carving his name into my arm as the bleeding increased. 'he's not here.' as I
stood from my bed
looking around. I collapsed on the floor and
began sobbing frantically,
running my hands
through my hair, the blood that was
leaking rapidly out
of my arm, staining my clothes.
'it's not real, he didn't abandon
me. I know it' nothing feels real, slight
dizziness taking over me. I stumbled to the closet, weakly snatching a shirt of
the hanger, feeling nothing but a numbness radiating through me. I wrapped the shirt around my
wounds. I heard
a light knock
on my window. My eyes were
wide, filled with hope. I ran towards my window, opened the curtains. He was here. Moonlight
was here with that same smile. He came into my apartment window. I tried to
help him. I
did not
want him to fall, I'm on the 7th floor he could have died, but he refused my help and came in easily. He
looked at my
arm, took
the blood-stained shirt from my arm, and back at me with an unreadable
expression. I looked away, embarrassed. ' what do I say? I can't tell him I did
this for him, It would sound insane' Just as I was about to fabricate a foolish
cover-up. He hugged me; This doesn't feel real.
I hugged him back, taking in every detail of him. He smelled like lavender and
sunlight; it was odd, but not bad. I've never smelled anything like it. I
enjoyed it. His suit was so soft, 'silk perhaps?' Although his body felt very
firm like it was nothing but muscle. I shouldn't think of him like this. I
tried to shake such perverse thoughts from my mind. He looked down at me with a genuine smile, kissed my
forehead, then whispered to me, "Come
with me'" Those three words felt like my life's purpose. His voice
was like the deepest sea, and I would love to drown in it. His voice carries a
strange accent but fitting for his mysterious atmosphere. He ran his hands
through my hair, staring me in the eyes. I love it. I want to drown in his essence., his very being. "Come with me," he said once more. I smiled and whispered, "Yes, Moonlight"
looking into his stunning eyes, he took my hand, and we stepped outside of my
window. 'I'm so happy he came back for me.' I looked down to see a plethora of people staring at us.
'Why are they staring' I was confused. He caressed my face and placed a small
kiss on my lips, and his eyes found mine. " Do not worry about
them; they concern us not." I nodded excitedly, 'he's right, I've waited for him. I
can't lose him again.' The moon's pale light lit up the world, as Moonlight did my
life. Truly radiant. he held my hand tightly and said to trust him. 'I already do,
I trust him more than I do myself.' He jumped. With him, I was never afraid. I kept my eyes on him, and The
pressure on my chest and the pain started to increase. I began to cry, and soon
after my eyes closed, once I awakened, the pressure was gone entirely, I was
dressed in black and we were in a field, full of roses, black and a bright red.
'so this is where he got them' the sky was red, but no Sun or Moon. The roses
moved as if the wind was present, but there was no wind, it was very still. There
also seemed to be dark buildings about a mile or two away from us. He held my
hand while walking with me to a door. There was nothing on the sides or behind
it. Once the door opened, It was beautiful, the same beautiful roses, but white
ones instead; my friends were here, my great-grandmother, My father. 'They had
all passed' I realized It then, I was dead. I looked back at Moonlight, and his
eyes took on a glossy black that still reflected me so vividly. he also had
what looked to be fresh scars along the sides of his mouth running towards his
ear, pulsing veins everywhere on his face, and appeared much thinner; he also
carried a transparent scythe on his back. He did not deter me. I hugged him
tightly, begging him to let me stay with him. I didn't have to be alive. I just needed him. He pushed me away roughly and demanded I go; when
he spoke, his mouth and his scars opened as well, revealing jagged teeth. raw
unhealed wounds. ' was he trying to scare me?' "I'm not scared of this appearance; I'm afraid of you
leaving me," I spoke defiantly. The exasperated look in his eyes was
unmistakable. He pointed to my family and patted my head softly. I'm not a
child, but I couldn't help the tears I let out. I grabbed his hand and held it
close to my face, wiping my own tears and rubbing my face; 'just hold me like
you used to,' I looked in his eyes. I did not want to leave, but I felt eyes on
me that weren't my family. They were not as welcoming. I had so many questions,
but I feared if I wasn't compliant. I would get a fate worse than death.
Behaving like a child would not do me any favors. "I'll go' I said as I looked at the ground beneath my
bare feet. He stopped me and held a black rose between his index finger and
thumb as I turned away from the door. It burned between his fingers. I looked
at him confused, until it took the form of a black rose pendant. I was in awe,
and it was beautiful; he placed it on my neck, and I began to walk in, but I
stopped at the door. 'What if he forgets me?' I grabbed the rose closest to the
door and handed it to him, While I hugged him once more. Once I pulled away, he
placed the white rose on his suit, and it Embedded itself like it was a
stitched embroidery. I will always be a piece of him. As I made it towards the door, I looked back with a sullen
smile. I would miss him so much. "goodbye,
Moonli- I mean death," I fumbled
over my words; 'he is a grim reaper, right? I should show the proper respect.'
I looked into his eyes once more and smiled; as I began towards the door again,
he said something that made it much harder to leave. " No, it is
Moonlight; finally, you can be at peace." I had to leave, I had to
leave now. "Can you visit?" "No. We are not allowed to visit the souls of the
dead." 'Such a stupid question to ask him.' I felt embarrassed. I
walked into the room with dozens of faces from my past talking amongst another,
ready to greet me. " I never said I
would not," He said as he gave me a longing look and closed the
door. I held my pendant, staring at the door until it disappeared into dust. 'I fell in love with
death, and I think death fell in love with me as well.' I turned around, smiling at the lost souls of my pasts,
waiting for the day death would greet me
again. © 2022 elexusAuthor's Note
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