Thoughts

I use to be a darker girl

the kind that wanted to taunt you

when i react too soon and 

the camera flickers, i can still feel her

waiting for a chance to be left down

begging me to just get a lil thicker

so i can find a man with money

so the likes will make my head bigger

I use to be a different girl 

i would have never seen your worth

would have never felt the way my heart

beats with yours.. couldn't miss you

until there was hurt

inevitably placing the blame

when i just didn't know my worth

Now i'm a grown woman

i know something real is getting 

harder to find and

that sometimes strength isn't

bad intentions and I would be

a fool to take advantage of your blind faith 

Finding something to fight for

I can maybe put my past behind me 

But still, when the camera flickerss

or a little too much liquor.. i catch a glimpse of her

and that scares me