What Hurts The Most (CaptainSwan)

Set in S5. This is a tribute to Emma and Hook. I hope you enjoy.

*5x1 Part 1-Beginning*

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears every now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though goin’ on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m okay

But that’s not what gets me

            It was a dark night in Storybrooke, as Hook stood in the street with the dagger in hand that could control whoever was The Dark One. In this world, after Emma had saved Regina from the Darkness, Hook believed that Emma was now The Dark One; Not Rumpelstiltskin or, like he liked to refer Gold to, The Crocodile.

            “What are you doing?” Regina questioned from a ways behind him.

            “Summoning her.”

            “It’s not like she disappeared on a unicorn. She vaporized in a cloud of dark magic. I would think that you’d be smarter than that.”

            “I can summon her. I know what I’m doing. I dealt with The Crocodile for more than a decade,” he said, before trying to summon her. “I summon you, Dark One.” After a few times, he put his arm down. “I don’t understand. Why isn’t it working?”

            “Isn’t it obvious? She’s not in this world anymore,” Regina sympathized with him.

            He turned around to finally look at the reformed Evil Queen. All he wanted was Emma back; The Savior. She was his happy ending. He couldn’t lose her. Not after everything they had gone through for the past three years.

*5x1-Granny’s Diner*

What hurts that most was being so close

And havin’ so much to say

And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’ what could’ve been

And not seein’ that lovin’ you

Is what I was trying to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losin’ you everywhere I go

But I’m doing it

It’s hard to force a smile when I see out old friends and I’m alone

Still harder getting’ up, getting’ dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

            It was a dark night, as Hook sat at the bar on the bar stool in Granny’s Diner, drinking from his flask that was filled with Whiskey, drinking away his pain. That’s when Belle found him and went to sit by him.

            “You know, Granny’ll give you a glass if you ask,” she told him. “Did you try to kiss her?” she added, changing the subject.

            “Aye,” he answered. He took another drink from his flask, before adding, “She didn’t even flitch.”

            “I’m sorry,” she said, knowing what it felt like after everything she had gone through with trying to make Rumple into a better man and trying to save him from the Darkness.

            “It’s not over. I spent over a century trying to kill the bloody Crocodile. I can spend at least that long trying to save the woman I love.”

*5x2-The Kiss*

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin’ so much to say

And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’ what could’ve been

And not seein’ that lovin’ you

Is what I was trying to do, oh

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin’ so much to say

And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’ what could’ve been

And not seein’ that lovin’ you

Is what I was trying to do

            It was a dark night, as they kissed in the house that was now her place.

            A few minutes later, he pulled away and looked at her.

            “It didn’t work. Why didn’t it work?”

            He had expected their kiss to turn her back into herself, instead of being The Dark One.

            “It didn’t work, because I’m The Dark One,” she answered him, getting what he meant.

            A few minutes later, he walked away. He would have to try another plan to get her rid of the Darkness that flowed through her.

That’s what I was trying to do, ooh