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Confusion

Dear Diary,

I woke up this morning in pain.   My body aches and I really can't tell if it's physical or emotional.

I've let myself go in a sense.  On all levels. I know, I know the choice is mine however for so long I chose to follow the footsteps of love. Giving myself up to and for someone else.  So, I

need a lesson in balance.

I've lost everyone it seems.   My family, not liking my choices in a valiant effort to save me, ended all we once knew.

My friends walked away, not liking my choices either.    My choice was a love that I felt in my heart and soul in ways I never knew possible.

So, how could I not give it a chance my Dearest Diary? 

I have to believe this all has taken place for a higher purpose then even I can see right now.

I wonder, if this isn't so much about my choice as maybe this is just what life has in store for me.

I'm tired of wonder, tired on not knowing and so tired of wishing on a galaxy of stars that may be out of range.

*Today I manifest change in my life. Positive change that will help me see clearly the path

that I am suppose to be journeying on. 

Blessed be.