Letters To Hell

This is a poem about what suicide does to those who are left behind. How depression messes with those still alive.

Dear cous, I understand your suicide and I do not
blame you at all.
I understand why you took your life leaving your
1 year old child behind
I understand why you left me knowing that you
were my only source of happiness
The only fountain of happiness I could drink from
I understand why you took your life, your breath,
your soul and as much as it stabs, as much as it
hurts
I do not blame you.
Was your life as hollow as mine?
As dark, pain-ridden as mine?
Did depression take you on a rollercoaster ride?
Trick you and said it would be fun?
Did it use you, chew you and spit you out as it did
me?
Because I would understand, I completely
understand why you did what you did
And I do not blame you at all
I understand!
What I do not understand is why you couldn't
pass the bill, share the pill?
Why did you leave me behind to fend for myself?
Now I can picture you strolling alone in hell
Because God couldn't understand!
Why you had to do what you did
I can picture you alone
Burning eternally
Alone
Suffering in Burning
Sulphur
Alone
Because cous you're a murderer
A killer in God's eyes!
And you ought to be punished.
Even if my tears were magical and could bring
you back I wouldn't because as much as it stabs,
as much as it pains..
I'll never be with you
And I understand