Lost in Insanity

I wrote this for a friend. He said I capture his feelings spot on.

The sound of the clock ticking

counts the beats of my heart beating

every second goes by 

it gets harder to breath.

Years and years

I've been drowning in my own tears

praying to find a way out of this cursing pain

but the longer I wait 

it seems time is running out for me.

(Can you hear me?)

I call out your name

but your ears seem to have gone deaf

the longer I scream 

the sound no longer travels out for you to hear

the longer I fight, the many times I fall 

my world is crumbling,

what is left for me to hold?

The poison you consumed

made you cursed me with pain,

all the blood I shed for you 

to make you notice me
I realized too late

all I tried to do was in vain 

you care for no one but yourself.

Listen, listen

can you hear the silence growing louder?

listen, listen

one day you'll realize it was all a mistake.

I call out your name 

but your ears seem to have gone deaf

the longer I scream 

the sound no longer travels out for you to hear

the longer I fight, the many times I fall 

my world is crumbling,

what is left for me to hold?

The more I try, I fall deeper in darkness

darkness consuming every inch of my being

(gotta fight, gotta fight)

is there anything left for me?

(gotta fight, gotta fight)

I won't let you define me!

You will never see me again

you lost your chance 

you broke the trust 

I lost all my respect for you

don't look so pitiful

this is the end!

(I will not believe your lies)

(I will shut out our past)

(I will heal)

(I will take what is mine)

Every second I spend time with you

you robbed the innocence left in me,

my dignity, and my sanity

you and I, we are history
I will mend the scars left in my heart

and without you,

without you,

I will recover what was meant to be mine!