I WANTED TO BE LOVED

'Sometimes people worry of things that aren't to worry about and make irrational choices.

I heard,
Not all can love you
Unless they make you a fool
When people hate you
Means you're not their tool.
I knew.
Some people can just speak
In words they say  love
In their heart they mock
They are ostensible
But I wanted to be love
That I had to befriend my enemies.

I felt lonesome,
In the midst of a crowd
I was isolated.
I was desperate to convince  somebody,
That I am worth my value
I am a soldier who is a victor
Judging from my picture,
The opposite is true.
38*c warm-welcoming image,
Charming eyes,
Honest smile,
Lustre hair,
Mute.
No word could form my speech
Who wants someone who's quiet?
But my heart seek
In my brain a voice "do it,do it"
I hold back words to utter
I have fear of the unknown
I only want to be loved

Tell me,
The meaning of true love
Where it is I miss it
No matter how much I offer
I never get back such kindness.
Where  I go I am favoured
I am loved dearly
But I am still invisible.
Low self-esteem.
They claim I don't  trust myself
Because i feel hated
In the absence of my enemies.
I don't know precisely what I lack.
Regardless  of my ignorance
One thing I realize
I want to be loved.

Author's Note

Please inform me if any cliches.