Living Nightmare

I remember the first time I met you. You were the sweetest, kindest girl I ever knew. I knew that you were the one that I would love forever. You cared about me till the day you died, as I felt the same way about you. It was as if I was living a dream when we were together. You made me complete, and the happiest man in the world. All the things that you did for me and the feelings you shared with me made me feel like the happiest man alive. Untill that one day that changed everything between me and you; I let you go. Not knowing what I lost, I lived my life in sadness, knowing that you would move on and leave me in the dust. I realised the mistake that I had made and started to realize the life I was liveing turned into a nightmareish hell with you gone. I wanted you back, I had made a mistake and never wanted you go. I loved you, and thought about you all the time. About all the sweet things you did for me, and the feelings you shared to me. So i beged you to please take me back, and you did.  Now that I knew you wanted to stay with me after all the pain that I put toward you, I knew that the pain and suffering was all over because we were together again. You changed though, the loved that we shared for each other was now gone. The love I shared toward you was thrown away because you didnt want it anymore. You treated me like trash because what I had done to you. I appolagized though, saying that I would never do it again. You never cared though; you just wanted me out of youre life for good. It's as if the tables turn, and you were the one who wanted to let go of me now. I did'nt know what to do anymore, so i let you decide if i should stay or if I should go. You chosed me to go, and live the rest of your life finding somebody else to love, to share your feelings toward, and to let me be without you for the rest of my life. Now I spend my days woundering if you still have feeling's toward me, if the same girl I fell in love with was still there. I try to move on but it seems's to hard to when I think about you every single day. Now that I know that this liveing nightmare is a reality, and there is nothing I can do now, I have nothing else that i can realy much say anymore. All i can say is that I miss you, and will always love you. Goodbye