My Exposition

I'm more than self-conscious

if that makes sense

and I could have better managed

the time I spent

my writing skills are not really

where I would like them

should have put pen to pad everyday I didn't

cause everyday I didn't

feels like a wasted day i was given

people must view me through a different scope

even she's looking at me like she had a different hope

they think I got it figured out

and I don't

I'm searching for my home

I'm 22 years old

and what do i have to show

I want to write something dope

and no be concerned about

if and when i might choke

my head is too clouded

maybe it's the weed smoke

now i mentioned marijuana

am I considered a joke

tossed in a category

with other young folks

my points are invalid

my methods are unfounded

shoveling s**t for so long

and now I'm surrounded

it was clearer to me

just a week ago

who knows what will happen

to me

in a week or so

talking like I got a weakened soul

I'm looking for something

a purpose

or maybe just a miracle

I'm more than self-conscious

if that makes sense