Melancholia./ Side Note.A Poem by Tatiana CasaliTake it as you want.I can't seem to find myself. It's hard to wake up in the mornings. I just want to sleep all day. I've run out of cigarettes and I'm broke. There's nothing to eat and nothing to do. I've lost interest in the things I used to love. I don't feel my legs anymore. I feel paralyzed in my mind. I can't seem to breath. My eyes feel heavy and I want to sleep. I don't have any medication so I can't numb the pain. I feel so dull, so expressionless. So blank. I can't draw right now. I've lost all motivation. I don't think I'm good enough. To be honest, I think i'm a waste of space. I'm all alone. I don't have any friends. It was fun in the beginning. But now it's just stupid. I don't know why I even try anymore. I don't know why, But I find no meaning in life. Everything is so pointless. All I have is my family. And yet I still feel so far away. An outcast. A black sheep in disguise. I don't understand. Why am I even here? I feel so lost. I can't find my way. Everything is the same to me. So bleak. I don't know why I'm still like this. I want to live again. But I forgot how too. I want to be trully happy and not just for that moment when I'm surrounded by my family and we're all laughing even though I know that deep down inside of me. I'm still so sad. © 2014 Tatiana Casali
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StatsAuthorTatiana CasaliCape Coral, FLAboutHi, My name is Tati. What I mostly write about is my experiences in life and how I feel. I don't care if my writing is not good enough. I don't care id it doesn't fit your standards. I am not writing .. more..Writing
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