Senseless Thoughts.

Every moment I think of you, not being mine,
Destroys me.
Why did it come to what it had come to?
Was I even good enough for you?
Did you even love me like you had said you did?
We talk, a lot.
It feels like things are normal between us,
Like they were back when we were together.
It kills me.
You wanna know why?
'Cause I still love you.
I honestly don't think you could say the same.
You seem so much better without me being by your side.
Was I the only thing holding you back from the things you wanted?
Obviously, that was the case.
But if it's not then why can't we go back to how things were?
Let us restore each other.
You completed me.
You were my one.
The one who made me feel so much better in my life,
When it was complete s**t.
Now that you're not by my side, it's so much worse.
I hate myself for sitting here crying over you, and writing this.
But, I just can't help the feelings that still exist inside.
I love you, but in the same breath,
I hate you for how badly you hurt me.

Reviews

[Kestrova]

This was truly heart-wrenching to read and sometimes it seems like heart broken poetry is the most beautifully written. It's such a wonderful way to vent concealed emotions though, isn't it? A sorrowful but eloquent piece, in spite of the pain behind it.