A Timid Heart's Love

Boom, boom, boom, boom.....

My drumming heartbeat in my ear, pitched above my heavy breathing.

The leaves of autumn rustling before mine eyes,

As if to make way for my weary feet that moves in search of your house.

And the hand that knocks on the doors to you, trembles in anticipation of all I want to say.

Yet here you are before me now, and I am blank.

There were so many thoughts swirling in my head before here and now.

Thoughts of all I wanted,

Memories and dreams of past and future colored vividly with you,

A prayer to be your undeniable everything,

A hope to always put a smile on your freckled face,

And a strange need for your annoying corrections almost every time I speak.

I want all you are, all you were, and all you will be.

Alas my love is timid and I am frozen in my shoes.

My lips refuse to say the things I want them to, and I am baffled by the coward that is myself.

If only I had someone to tell me "speak boy!, say something, anything!"

Because I can't rely on myself for these kinds of things.

Instead I will take a step back as always, hanging my head and turning away.

But just this once I am determined not to run from what may be my last chance.

I will simply close my eyes and speak my heart, 

And hope that when I turn around I can count myself lucky,

That you were some how waiting there just for me.

Author's Note

I am new at this and I want to be better at it so please feel free to give me as many pointers as you can.