Can't remember

My friend gave me a prompt to write about drunken mistake I do not remember, and my feelings towards someone.

I can't remember anything
Except my silent pleas to stop
And never ending darkness

I drink so that I will forget
So that in the morning I can be born again
Baptized in vodka and brandy

Instead my days are spent in Hell
With you as both my Devil
And my Lord

Looking down on my lost innocence
Laughing at my failures
As you sit on your throne of lies

I'll still keep drinking
Praying with each sip
That I will be saved