The Pains of Regret.

A little bit of my pain goes away on paper.

I lay on my bed, my mind gone numb

As I stare at the ceiling lookin dumb.

I feel as if the world has stopped

All my emotions and feelings dropped.

I remember the time when things were right,

Up until the fight of my life.

I walked out the door with anger in my heart

Feelin like my world was ripped apart.

It hurts to see me in this sorry state

Lookin back I felt so much hate.

I try to transcend the forces of fate

But they prove to be much too great.

I sit back in my room dreamin of life

Figurin out how to change the strife.

It feels like chains have gripped my soul

Tighteining to keep it from growing whole.

I look at the blade at my side

Thinkin of places for me to hide.

I look towards my closet with my deep dark secrets

Trying to imagine when my life started to decrease.

I try to find love so that I can heal

Because all I want to do is feel.

You could call it regret that I feel so much

That's keepin my life out of touch.

It's so painful that I can't bear it

Buried so deep that I can hear it.

Screaming at me with so much harm

That I'm always giving alarm.

When this ends it'll be my fears

That tear me apart shredding my tears.

When I'm buried beneath this cold earth

My only sanctuary will be the clodden dirt.

Author's Note

This is actually how I feel most of the time. I would like to think that I'm a happy person, but alas people can't see me for what I am. They add things on to apease themselves. Well...this is how my heart hurts.

Reviews

[Ms Jessica Renee]

Happiness is but a blessing for some of us, and our pain an never ending pain. Internal conflict for our own life, it is something we writer's all can somewhat relate to. It is what brings about the words of our works, giving a little insight to those deep hidden thoughts whirling around in our minds.

Your words brought about a nod to my head as I read. Pain is something I am no stranger to. The power of your worlds made me reflect on my own inner emotions and thoughts. We all try to harbor the agony of our hearts but how can we when it is apart of who we are. Happy we may be but deep down inside, there is a vast array of emotions we feel and we but have to let them out to be genuinely happy with out life.

So well done my friend, you have such a raw talent when it comes to writing.

[Emily B]

There should be release in the words. Such strong feeling words.