Tea, A Good Book and You.

It's about wanting to be a good person for someone you love.

Being the protective little girl That I am, I've always been angry.

Had way too much to give.

But I don't wanna hurt you.

I'm always snapping on you

I'm a ticking time bomb

and you're a stick wall.

A overreaction and me yelling will eventually knock you down.

I'm The Big Bad Wolf and you're The Little Pigs.

But what If I wanna be Little Red Riding Hood?

Oh dear now look what I've done.

 I'm mixing up stories.

I want my life to be a fairy tale.

I want us to grow old together.

Have/adopt kids of our own considering your asexuality.

I don't wanna be pressuring 

I wanna be perfect.

I wanna be able to make you smile when your sad.

Or help you when you're down.

But instead.

I overreact over little things because I'm in a bad mood.

There is no room for snapping because the next snapping sound I hear could be this relationship breaking in half. 

I don't want that.

Sometimes I picture myself if we broke up.

And how I should start being a little more independent because it seems I love spending time with you and if you leave me that'll hurt like a b***h. 

I don't want you to leave me.

No one compares right now

IMAGINE if I had to find somebody new.

SO! This is Fluffy and Mittens my two baby cats!

I have 17 more in my basement....

And.. Whats your name?

Sometimes I like to stare at the stars thinking what's in store.

for the future.

OUR future

I realized I kind of depend on you now.

I know

that imaging the rest of your life

 with someone you've been dating for about a month now is 

cliché

But I don't care

I'm trying to become more invisible so you don't have to deal with people.

I'm trying to be selfless and talk less.

I'm running and eating less so I can loose weight to look perfect for you.

You say I'm perfect but you don't understand how much better off I'd be and look.

I want my life to be a fairy tale.

I wanna run away 

With Tea, a good book,

And most importantly.

You.

Author's Note

I understand that you live for yourself, but this is what its like wanting to live for others but for some reason can't.

Reviews

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Honestly written. I agree, tea and a good book and you or, in my case, her. Thanks for sharing.

[Elfrinett]

No problem, Happy to share,