Me and my Monster

Life of a person with eating disorder

No one knows what it's like for me
A plate of food
To you seems easy

What if while you hear your belly grumbling
Something in your head starts a mumbling
A tear from your eye starts a tumbling

Makes you pause
Stop sometimes too

Think twice
Halt
Freeze

Thinking about it
Making you weak at the knees

People look at you
As if you are two

Its your fault you're like this
What do you expect me to do

Why blame it on me
It's easy to say
That I'm being awkward
I'm not like this everyday

But what you can't see
Is how hard it is for me
Not be able to eat
This lovely cooked tea

You don't know how it feels
Not be able to eat a meal

Sometimes I question
What its like to be normal
To eat a meal
Without a nervous wobble

It's a monster inside
That's attacking my mind

If there was one
A solution to find
I'd be the first
At the front of the line

So at the moment
Please be kind
To me
And my monster
Hidden deep inside

Author's Note

Probably not written great but wanted to express what's happening to me and how it feels

Reviews

[Pawprints]

I get this. I actually really get this. I like the sounds of grumbling, mumbling, and tumbling together.

[Ellejune]

thankyou much appreciated glad to see someone gets what i write

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

We all have our quirks, fears or disorders... and it is so hard to understand something we are not experience... we must remember how we feel it feels to be misunderstood as a reminder not to judge others.

[Ellejune]

thankyou much appreciated

[KAOlmsted]

Very expressive, and I think you've captured the disorder quite well. I hope the demons don't win ;-) Demons are right b******s.

-kimmer

[Ellejune]

thankyou

[Dr. Wood ?]

I think you do pretty well here...I would try NOT to TRY to hard to find a rhyme..Sometimes it can be better with a subject such as this to just write what you feel and give it the rhythm of rhyme but not have to actually rhyme it...Sounds complicated but it is easier than you may think

[Ellejune]

Thankyou i have a habit of thinking all poems should rhyme

[Dr. Wood ?]

most of mine do..but it is not considered to be necessary by most people

[Ellejune]

i know it something that i have engrained into me that they should always rhyme and they not good if they dont