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I cried the day I turned 19.. Pretty sure this is why!

When you're growing up you're told you can be whatever you want to be. You can change your mind every other minute and you're praised for your creativity. You could even be a unicorn if you really wanted to. 

So why has all this changed? I'm far from being grown up, still don't know what I want to do or who I want to be.. is it already mapped out for me? I can't help but feel that I'm being punished for my lack of a decision over something I was taught to think wasn't even one worth making.

Where's the time to make mistakes take wrong paths and fall into the gutter. Where's the time to really live? Do we get to 16 and then wham bam s**t you've finished school and where you are now is your oyster? Where does the world go? 

Personally, I want the whole earth, not just the sodden soil I stand on now at my feet. I want to go everywhere see everything fall in love and experience the lives and cultures of the free people.. if they really exist. I want to stop crying over the fear of getting old and start appreciating how much I need to see. Hopefully with the people I love's support guiding me to it.