Back To Me

It is a story, it is a poem. the only way I can explain it.

I was a wrap on shore before you came,

I watched the sea coiled within my wrap,

Many waves brushed my feet, yet I stayed unwet,

Some managed to drag me beyond the shore,

I just couldn't swim along with my wrap on.

Do not think I love it within here,

Do not think I do not feel what you feel,

I may look unruffled, 

I am tiny grains of rock in whirlwind beneath the wrap.

I suffered the pain of unending desire,

Many lonely nights, I longed to be touched too.

I have been at sea before, but my wrap never left.

I must admit the wall was high,

I wished I knew how to bring it down.

I got bored of the shore, I wanted to be at sea.

All I needed was a stronger wave to bring down the wall,

I wanted the wrap ripped 'cos I couldn't break free. 

I knew I was too deep for shallow hands,

Non came close to my core though I tried to be unme.

So I sat ashore and watched the rest at sea,

I peeped behind the wall,

wishing I could open up easily.

Then you came along without a string,

I discovered your journey is the path I also know.

You understood my unspoken words, 

'cos it's a life you once lived.

Each day I spoke a word more than the previous,

A finger out, a toe out, I started to bare me effortlessly.

I didn't want more, it was a relieve that I could talk to someone,

It was a reward that the ears that listened understood.

When I discovered you belonged to someone else,

I wasn't disappointed or bothered, that wasn't the part of you I wanted.

I did get a red caution flag to remind me the zone we were.

You also wore the caution flag, your standard never flickered.

You may not be perfect, but I said, ''He is one of a kind''

I'd better have him for a brother.

Then, a faithful night 'mama didn't talk about'

We talked as usual but I was ravaged within,

Hormones betrayed me I just could not cage the fire,

I lost control and came crashing down.

I needed a prey, you were the victim.

I called you back and confessed my sin.

We nibbled on the subject like teenagers.

I was shy but desire gave me up,

I just needed a voice to ease me through.

We flirted with words, my body dripped for more.

I toyed with me, your voice coached me.

It was suppose to be just it,"In the morning ,

I would be sane again and apologize''.

So I thought.

Then day turned to days, and night rolled to nights,

Your voice was the sun I needed to get me up in the morning,

Your face was the lullaby I needed to sleep at night.

We were far apart, but I carried you everywhere.

I couldn't stop myself from worrying if you eta or not.

I worried when you didn't smile or the smile wasn't deep enough.

I still had the red caution flag on and I wasn't going to discard it,

It just felt so good to have you for a while.

So I jumped over the wall, I left the shore and my spirit flew to sea.

But I left a part of me on shore, on the wall I hung the red flag of caution.

Now and then, I turn to look at the caution flag, 

I knew the euphoria was a short one,

But I loved every moment of it,

You unraveled a part of me I never knew,

I burned with passion, just at the sight of you.

You drowned me with the storm in your eyes when you stare into mine,

I melt like wax before you in our private moments, you ruled me.

Our bodies never touched, but you made love to my soul.

With you I was free and unbothered, I didn't mind being stupid.

You may not have felt like I did, I know you felt it in half,

And that half was enough to unwrap me.

I left the wrap on shore, I stepped out of me.

Then I saw your flag winked and blinked,

I looked to see the red I hung behind, 

It waved at me to return, time to turn towards the shore.

I just wanted to feel, and it came in the strangest place.

Now my feet is out of water, I sit on the wall,

looking at where you are, I know the while is over.

I carry with me the memories.

I wish you the best and genuine happiness,

I will watch you but no more behind the fence.

I will be here enjoying the shore,

Until some sweet smile turns my head again,

And maybe stay at sea forever.

Till then,

I Am Back To Me.

 

 

Reviews

[Tom]

You found yourself in a whirlwind romance that was always destined to end but was so uplifting and soul enhancing while it lasted!

A finely penned tale of yearning and newly found confidence!

[Abioduun]

Thanks for reading Tom, and the comment