The scales of justice.

Come to me with your evil face,

To promise me your fair grace.

Do me bad for all my bad.

Give me good, if I've ever had.

Well on the line - not above, not below,

Keep me human, not a saint, not a hoe.

Be the angel of blessings, Gabriel.

Be the angel of punishment, Kushiel.

I see a b***h, an angel in you.

But found solace when walked in your shoe.

Bring torments, bring me faith.

To wash evil, give me holy water to bathe /

When I have evil, i get holy water to bathe.

You be my light in the dark.

Be my misleading landmark.

For, you bring my bad back to me.

To keep me on the line, to keep my average me.

Hundreds of souls away you take,

Hundreds equal then, you make.

You give autumn to spring,

Summer for winters you bring.

No demon, no angel I wanna be,

Hence, my good too comes back to me.

Thank you for being so natural to me,

His men hurt more, nature is a kind bee.

Be the coldest in the darkest night,

Be my weak armor in my evil fight.

Then, be the showers of rain in my drought,

Be the kind healing after I've fought.

You are indeed my personal God here,

Deciding all or nothing, giving me evil for evil and fair for fair.

You are running the world - the heaven, the hell.

Punishment is not afterlife, it's all here as well.

So be what you are and keep me steady.

Do what you're doing. Torments and blessings. I'm ready.

Why do we call you Karma?

You are God already.

January 25, 2013.

1:53 p.m

Reviews

[KeeD]

Very powerful write. As a person who's grown up with a lot of muslim friends and knowing how conservative and religious minded their families are, this was definitely a heavy write but it comes from a place of thought and discovery.. you are just being honest and I believe that is your way of discovering the religion and God you worship and love. Sure they'll say who are we to question, who are we to doubt or judge, well if we shouldn't then why did God provide us brains enough to do it? We all find God through something and you've represented your idea of him beautifully here, for he might be bittersweet but to you he's still God.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Exactly, Kee.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

And being a muslim myself.

[Aya]

i don't know about this, there are too many contradictions and i think there is no conflicts of this kind in allah ''god'' we are the ones with them.
something extreme here should be taken carefully

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Well, we can think the other way round. I am a muslim too but I accept my curiosity and let it grow and let my thoughts develop. We can say that Karma is Allah's way. Like they say, Faith is a knowledge within the heart, beyond the reach of proof. But what is mind if it does not think? ;)

[Aya]

i thought and thought, and there is no value of thinking if you don't find an answer, and i found mine :)

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Oh my God. You're the first writer I've heard saying such a thing. :P It's like saying, It's no value of having a mind in itself. We think, not because we're accustomed to but because we're ought to. :)

[Aya]

i believe you didn't think right in what i wrote in the first place so all what you are saying didn't come out of my tongue in the first place :D,,i am saying that by actually writing some sentences in his poem is a sin itself ''although i don't judge'' but calling god like a b***h or evil face is just wrong and asked god's forgiveness while reading..sorry but that is what i meant.
you don't have to reply me but i wanted to make my self clear,,not attacking though

[Aya]

there are some limits.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

That's better. Why do you think a b***h is evil? God's creation hunh? I believe in Pantheism. Even Spinoza says that God is nature. B***h is a part of His creation. It's nothing but narrow mindedness to think of any creature in such a way. Well, not all great minds think alike. I have to reply to everything that's said about my writing so that my readers get to understand me. :)

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thought process is limitless.

[Aya]

not all what we list as great minds are right like freakin' Hetler for an example :)..i think of islam in this and i don't over go any other thinking, islam is enough if you really understood it you'll find that there has to be guilt in this write.
about god creating b*****s..what? we all are born in one form and everyone is good or bad by there choice thats what differentiate us as humans 'our brain' , anyway good and evil thats a created system of which we are questioned after according to sunnah and quran.
every writer has morals he live by and i'm telling them now, i am against this one. but just don't understand that you don't feel that you crossed line as a muslim.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Hitler is still great to me. Lol. Oh so you think you've really understood Islam? Ah-mazing. I feel no guilt, for, I know God. There are people who have been sent for us to make us understand what we cannot but since you're saying that you have understood Islam I cannot debate with your knowledge.
Sunnah and Quran bind our ways of actions not our thinking. What is muslim? To have an evil desire is human, to resist it is Muslim.
You are most welcome to oppose my writing. I love having critics. I feel nothing that is not wrong.

[Aya]

i don't know what to write, not that i don't have the exact right things and evidences of religions to reply to this but i know that it won't convince you or that you put your self in a role of the local thinking of librals act, but if islam approves on what you said-accusing god and curses- i take that back there is no way to that 'if' just don't say islam is not related to thinking please.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Islam is related to thinking in the way I said already. To have an evil desire is human, to resist it is Muslim. . That doesn't mean you won't have an evil desire at all. What are you if you're not a human? Accusing God and curses? If you would have been a thinker, you would have re-read my poem and would have got my point. I am the one saying that God does no bad and balances every deed. :/

[Aya]

thats why i replied strongly you say a good thing then an extremely bad thing, they do not suit each other, n the 77 names of god you could have found better words that explain his greatness.

[Aya]

99* sorry

[Mehak Mushtaq]

That is already explained. I tried something new. Something bold, I can say but definetly not something evil.

[Aya]

maybe you didn't mean it , the choice of words is everything.
a word means what in means in it self not what it means to your self..i quote

[Mehak Mushtaq]

A word means whatever you let it mean to yourself. I would rather quote.

[Aya]

oh my god xD the quote i just said is meant to when you publish a write to others that do not know what the hell is in yourself, i'v had enough this can go forever

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Seems like you have limited your thinking. You're among people who think exactly what they're accustomed to think. And I didn't get your "when you publish a write to others that do not know what the hell is in yourself".
Haha well, better luck next time.

[KeeD]

You get to know a writer through her writing, approach may not be orthodox to the religion but at the same time it is a sincere human approach. I believe Islam give's her the right to be human and along with being human comes error but as she quoted" To think of evil is human to resist it is Muslim" and you have your point from a more religious and dogmatic in it's sense, even though you're intentions were pure not to bring a bad name or harm to religion or God you have to know that as your sister muslim she has the right to get to know Allah in her own way, discover him in her own light and time, we make errors in every aspect of life, why not religion? We all make judgments just a few people admit them, credit goes to the author of this piece for speaking her mind even though there are so many restrictions imposed by religion and society to be able to do that.

[Jack...]

Nicely done

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you. :)