"Relocate Underground"

There are many ways to get underground

but no one's found a way out

once immersed in the darkness they found.

If connections withstood the passage of time in the light

they're still with me;

even if I'm not standing them down

they're still on my mind - 

still following me around.

Some may have pushed me asunder -

made me flee to the underground

to retreat deny escape

or find the strength

to stay alive.

I've sentenced myself to a world

neither for the better or for the worse.

There are no choices in limbo -

ergo no regrets.

Even the hand of fate which I once couldn't defy

can't conspire against me with the broken hands of time.

They urge me to turn toward light and opportunity

but for what was already out of my hands

they demand you take responsibility.

The shame others would cast on me in my despair

could've been my eulogy written prematurely

but no one again will make a fool of me.

Once I go underground

as Jesus dies in vain

only to be resurrected again

there are no more crosses to bear

no more pain

and no more of feelings to spare.

Maybe someday if you consider relocating underground

you will take a second look and decide it's not for you

but any reservations you have  already guaranteed

you can't cancel

just because you misunderstood.