Dear B

A letter that someone would like to send to their Ex Best friend

Dear B,

I hope you know that I am still mad at you and that while you may have apologized to the others you have hurt, you have still not apologized to me. I mean, seriously? You unblocked me, and you showed up on my For You page, and it was a genuine jump scare. Once again, you’re a thought in my mind, and it’s all because of an algorithm. 

Remember how you blocked me for responding to you airing out all of our business to the world as if it were ever meant to be shared? All while making yourself the victim as if you weren’t dropped from an entire group of friends for a reason? Yeah, I remember. 

I’m glad that you’re doing better, though. I mean, I want you as far away from me as possible, but I did look through your page, which I know you’re not supposed to do, and I saw that you moved in with the love of your life. Congrats, I think. You have always hated your mother, so I’m glad you’re away from her. I hope that you have become a better person even if it came at the expense of me. 

I feel evil for still hating you. It’s obvious that neither of us has moved on, considering that we both had to have gone to the other's account at some point, but I still feel as though I should get over it. I mean the person most hurt by you did forgive you so I guess it’s supposed to be all good now, but damn the fact that you couldn’t even spare apologies for the rest of the people you hurt. You treated me like s**t you know? I guess that doesn’t matter, though, between me and this other person you always seemed to care more about them than you ever did me. 

I hate you. I miss you sometimes. I feel once again forgotten. 

I wish I could bring myself to actually say this to you, but every time I go to do it, I chicken out. 

All the feelings I forgot before you came tumbling back in my brain, and I no longer feel I’m in the right for having them.

So I guess you should text me? Don’t text me? Who knows at this point. I don’t even know what I’d want you to say.

Sincerely, 

Your Ex Best Friend 

P.S. You still owe me over $600 for that dress you never ended up using