A Destructive Me

Lately , well , Recently .. I have been very destructive to Myself . and I will admit that I am too blame no matter who was influencing me or what was influencing Me .. In the end I am the one who suffers . Through my destructive phase I have learned that , money doesn't buy happiness , well at least for ever - happiness , boys keep you unfocused , no matter how good of a friend a person is to you they will still eventually turn their back on you , also money IS the root of all evil . Most people wanna see you doing good but not better than them ! I guess I do have a tendency of blaming my problems on other people , but I feel like they're apart of my problems . but I also understand that I can't live my life blaming All my problems & tribulations on other people . I am old enough now where I can and should take the blame of all my problems ..