Stone

These rooms are cold

The pretending is over

I am alone...

This loss is

crawling under my skin

To say the least

The cold touch of stone

It burns me

It pains me

It's too much for me

I should have murdered her...

So much for the loving touches

So much for the gasping breaths

So much for the love that once thrived

So much for my aching soul that once died

My race is run

The devil is waiting

I love this...

The intended punishment must be death? 

It is a punishment I am ready for

But if not for the love I had

I'd be dead

The failure of touch

The opening of lips in gasps of breath

The superficial s-x that had me fooled

The climactic experience that she had elsewhere

It left a black spot in my brain...

My Mother often told me

How folly it was

As we sat in the garden

Talking and smoking

Oh, Pipes and Strings

Let my mind kick free

Oh, the Choir sings

I am dead and now I see

I see the childish s**t i went through

I see the way I let everyone s**t on me

I see it all clear as day

F**k this world

And f**k everything we ever learned

I feel the sickening anxiety of being left alone

I feel the need to toss it away

Reinventing myself right before the emergency exit

I should have killed myself long ago

But then the world would miss me

Hell, I'd miss me

F**k this world

And let's agree that it can hardly get anymore fucked

There's something haunting me

For the end is nigh

'Twas here that I should have died...

I spit on the world

I piss on the world

I s**t on the world

And I lie down

And sleep

Author's Note

Your honest opinion!

Rambling... I know but I needed it.

Reviews

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Wow, I agree so much with you! This world is screwed up. There are people out to hurt us and laugh in our faces when we hit rock bottom. You aren't alone though. I know what it feels like to get hurt by someone intentionally. The last stanza is an awesome way to end it: (*claps*) Bravo:

I spit on the world

I piss on the world

I s**t on the world

And I lie down

And sleep

I haven't read your work in awhile but I sure have missed reading it. Some of it may be depressing but it is also relatable. Awesome write and vent! :)

[stars are far]

You are very direct in this.. but well done..
Keep it up :)

[Coyote Poetry]

"I spit on the world
I piss on the world
I s**t on the world
And I lie down
And sleep"
Your words always direct and honest. The above lines are needed sometime. Better to find sleep and leave the s**t behind. No weakness in your amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Dayran]

Its sounds like preparing and rehearsing for the role of the hero ... Hawkeye on ' Last of the Mohicans ' and getting to the audition ... and they ask you to read for Magua ... the disenchanted native. In a perfect world we don't make mistakes like this ... except in situations where we don't care what the other is saying ... and we insists what we are doing is right. Nice.

[FallenHeroXx]

Thanks man

So what are you thinking?
Is it back?