All That

All that’s left of me..

Is the beautiful lie that was never created..

All the pills and f*****g butterflies..

Do you think of me?

I never really wondered if my life was worth more than suicide..

Even though once again I tried..

And I f*****g failed..

It’s like I’m not supposed to f*****g die..

Like I’m supposed to live in this agonizing form of existence..

Like I’m supposed to see death and disbelief right in f*****g front of me..

Like I’m supposed to be the pissed off old m**********r at the pub..

But none of you could understand..

Takes someone with my exact experiences to know how the f**k I feel..

But f**k it..

I’ll live on I guess..

Seeing how I apparently can’t f*****g die..

Oh my f*****g god..

I’m so f*****g furious..

But I can’t direct that feeling at anyone but myself..

And they say that everything’s gonna be fine..

That it’s just a bad dream come true..

It’ll be over soon..

Well f**k them..

F**k them all..

And I bid you goodnight.

Reviews

[Inyourshadow]

I relate to the poem and to the depth of painful emotion, you really expressed yourself well my friend, I love the gentleness of the end line of this piece for it's possible double meaning. Keep em' coming

[Desmund Tiny]

You express strong feelings here... nice poem

[Black]

This story has such truth to it.
It brings up alot of feelings
a nice write to express yourself

[Antonio Chevere]

this poem sends me back to a Big chapter in my life. loved it.

[LivingDeath]

This poem has been true to my life so many times. So many f*****g times. I OD'ed in the middle of a classroom one time while class was still in session.. Took the pills in family studies and they kicked it during history 12. Felt like I was going to die, but I didnt. Nobody even noticed. Nobody ever really ever notices when I am in pain until I write about it or they see my scars. Life is fucked but we just have to roll with it. Life goes on.. For most of us anyways.

[Dayran]

When you can't direct your anger at anyone but yourself, is the true birth of wisdom. Wisdom is something you have to nurture, water and watch over. In being slow, it shows itself to be real. All considered, you ended the poem with incredible civility. And a goodnight to you, sweet prince.

[donny ingraham]

excellent write, strong memories as well

[Tasha]

You expressed your emotions well and that's all that matters.
♥ Ta'Shandra

[sarah]

well a lot of f**k in this but I this is a good way to express your emotions

[Coyote Poetry]

Anger, memory and strong words. I almost got arrested one. I chased a thousand people off a beach by telling them to f**k-up. Lucky I was in California. They allow me to be nuts and be angry. It was a good day. I released years of being pissed off in a few hours. Life is a fair game. People who are kind and forgiving. Will do OK. Ain't easy for no-one. A excellent poem.
Coyote