A Poem of Mine

My body shaking so badly;

my mind going wild with growing fear.

The feeling of being useless;

a feeling of wanting to be no more.

 

My heart is racing.....all my thoughts are going cold

A happy face is seen that never grows old.

 

Pulsing is my mind and screaming from this everlasting fear;

trying to tell me to stop what I was about to do.

I WANT to so badly travel to the light ahead of my eyes;

it promises to me that there will be  no more of this fear.

 

The fear in my heart that grows more and more;

I don't know where to start and which door to choose.

Where do I go and where is the DAMN SAFETY anymore?

 

The dark is too overwhelming to take;

and just to much to trust with the safety of something that has been hurt so much.

When the light is too damn tempting;

I just want to see into the light which is ever so bright with promise and hope....

 

HELP ME! SOMEONE PLEASE HELP!!!!!

 

My sanity is going away and being eaten by the light and I've been hurt once more.

 

I am now being consumed by the light;

which actually wanted me to die and be no more.

A light that I once loved and would have done anything for;

that had made me happy even in the worst of my times.

 

What am I to do now?

Should I end my life with my long silver knife?

Before I am consumed into this light and before all my happiness fades....

 

Sanity fading, my heart is breaking, I'm going in the wrong direction, and my life is ending so quickly...

 

Although, it is what I wanted, right?

 

RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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SO F*****G BADLY AS TO WHERE I WOULD HAVE BEGGED FOR IT BEFORE!!!!!!!!!

 

NOW I'M  TO DAMN SCARED TO MAKE THAT FINAL STEP.

 

I JUST TELL MYSELF....

 

JUST F*****G DO IT!!!!!!!!!

Author's Note

If there are any grammatical errors I do apologize, but please tell me.