The Choice

Tears stream down my face
as I choke back the immense pain
Every once of my body racked in 
physical and emotional pain
as I pack a bag for one.
The questions fly through my head.
Can I do this?
Am I strong enough?
Throw my bag in the back of my car
Back out with one last look up at 
what use to be my life.
Only to find three little tear filled
faces staring back at me
they beg and plead scream 
for me to come back, please don't leave!
In that instant the most important question
Filled my brain. 
If I ignore them and leave them and the huge 
piece of my life and heart behind
Am I any better then the monster I would be leaving them with?
The answer to all my questions very clear
Defeat rings through my body
as I walk back through the door I just swore
I would never walk through again.
Once again betraying my one want,
My one need, My one true soul shaking love.