Oh Father, Why Must Thou Hurt Me?

Yup. My psycho father is at it again. But it's also inspired by God, who is my true Father! The only Father I need! 4/13/11.

Tears streaming down my round cheeks,
I sprint to the safe haven of my bedroom.
Your incessant screaming follows me
As I flee to what I call my secret place.

A girl of seventeen knows nothing of the world
Yet I know enough to hear the abuse in your words.
"I'm going to punch your teeth down your throat"
You exclaim to my brother, who defended my honor.

What did I do, father? I tried to plan a small graduation party...
When did that make me Lucifer? Do I deserve this rebuke?
My mind cannot wrap itself around the concept
That I "do not know how to love".

Me, father? Me? The one who gives up my happiness
To please you? The girl who greets you with hugs
And asks about your day? I think it is you, father,
Who does not know the meaning of love.

You blame me for what your life is like today
Yet I was not pulling the strings all these years.
I've been here for under two decades
So I am sure you messed up your own life.

Father? My true Father? Will You comfort me
During this trying time? My sanity is at stake, I fear.
Lord Jesus, I know that I generally come to You
When I am in pain, but I'm working at my faith.

Father? My dear Father? Please don't forsake me!
Lord Jesus, I need You now more than ever
As the devil has invaded my father's mind
And turned him against his sweet daughter.

Abba Father? Adonai? I love You more than my earthly father.
And You love me more than my earthly father ever could.
I'm fine with that because given the choice,
I would pick the Father who truly loves me.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A lot of turmoil at the beginning. The ending got more positive. Easy to make mistakes. Hard to try to understand. I like how you ended the poem. We need to hold on to hope and faith to survive in a life. A excellent poem.
Coyote