Lessons Learned

decade in review

wednesday play dates;
all the rage
but one baring particularly
bad news
of a far away
move

 

hide and seek in a brand new place
a blue jacket overhead in the
backseat
crying beneath radio waves

 

dolls and stories of their lives
paths in woods leading to
gigantic trees
Titanic and Ballerina were games
we liked to play

 

a brother's new girlfriend
and the sister who replaced a
best friend
boys and late nights writing down
inside jokes

 

a move to the same neighborhood
insecurities and honesties
shared between two girls amidst a
queen-size bed
first smoke out of a second story
window
with a bit of booze stashed in a
backpack

poker on friday nights
seemingly worth the hour drive
boxing techniques
and outrageous laughter
soothing all ears with each
shattering shriek

booth seating
stale coffee staining
overused saucers and cups
meaningful hugs defining
friendships we never thought
would end

 

first taste of love
and the pain it brought
first sip of whiskey
while discovering a lake
drunken forgiveness
and mistakes avoided
because "i love you
but not in that way"

 

second stab at the game
faded to an honest end
anxiety attacks and late night
vomiting
counselors and scripts with good
intent

 

one semester
thirteenth grade: fail
a strange encounter
a friend with a sad past
psychology projects and a
lasting alliance

best friend who liked to party
equally as ill as i
handcuffs and pissing in a
jail cell
rumors swirled

reformation begins
parental lockdown leading me
to seek out the good
ones
and so i surf the web

 

chocolate cake shots and billiards
a museum of particular taste
and a nagging feeling
that i was being saved

 

mishaps of my past
were sure to come back
cloudy errors with backstage
passes
begging forgiveness for my
incoherentness:
granted

 

requited love
learning to trust
recovering

engaged and ecstatic
but not without letup
dramatic older sister
and a best friend sneering and steering
me wrong

 

exiled and replaced with an older
sister
god sent on our wedding day

 

an autumn morning with moisture in the
air
pictures by a friend i wished i'd known
better

 

honeymoon to a country we loved
and finally rescued
by the only man who could

 

a perfect match
and a prayer of thanks to God
for giving me what I needed
all along

Reviews

[Gastroc.]

you're mentioned of course haha

[Marilyn My Bitterness]

Great look back on the past. It tells a lot but only with a careful read over. Great write :)