I want to be flying

Rain pounding onto the cold earth
Soaking through my clothes
I look up and there is an asphalt road
Here in a forest in the middle of nowhere
Slow steady steps take me to its side
It is luminescent of a river
A black river
And then the lights appear
From the darkness of the night

And the face of a raging storm
I know this nightmare

 

I try to run but the lights come too fast
Blinding me to Him
I wish to escape but I know I will always be trapped
Binding me to His eternity
I want to awaken but I already know
This is reality

 

Suddenly the light disappeared
And I fall into the black river
The road had disappeared
The rain is now hail
The trees had disappeared
I wish someone would save me
But he will be the only one to answer
The only one to hear
Because he is the one to silence my voice

 

“You could never escape.”
I know
But I had to try
I wanted to be flying
Soaring
I wanted to be free

 

“You have had your fun.”
What fun would that be?
I am scared and hurt by all
People will beat me and try to kill me
You chase me and always play with me
The sound of your bitter laugh
As you tease me
A touch that was never felt
Your eyes that were never seen
A heat never known
Your voice that was never heard

 

“Now you belong to me.”
You make no sense
I have always belonged to you
I could and cannot ever escape you
Please
Do not take me…

 

What a bitter memory
Sour with a painful throbbing
I remember that night
The rain
The road
Those lights
Him
My wish has changed
I wish to forget

 

“Love me.”
Truly evil
The devil you are
You have taken everything
Killed everything
Please
Do not take my heart as well…

 

Is this your newest means of torturing me?
This is what you want
And all I have asked is freedom
Do you see what you have done?
Speak words and pierce my heart
Say it again and tear me apart

 

God, I have always prayed to you
Prayed that you would protect me and make me strong
But never once did you hear me
And when you did
You heard me wrong
Why do you not comprehend?
Why can you not see
Exactly what it is you are doing to me?

 

 

I want to be flying
Not just an instant
I want to be flying
But now it is clear
Because of him
Because of you
Instead of flying
Where I had once been
I am dying

 

 

Alone

Author's Note

I fixed it!

Reviews

[Susan S.]

The alteration of size is a hinderance to the piece. I have macular degeneration in my right eye and can't see the smallest of that print even when I increase size in my browser. Also you haven't kept to the original premise, which is that the light, the person, and the road all must be mentioned in the first line.

[Ruby Moon]

mmm...almost all the verses refer to that person/god with a capital first letter (except with you use "him")
so i wasn't sure if you were refering to god or not... until the second last verse

the size makes me think of how a person is angry...their voices are loud at the beginning
then softer and softer as the anger burns away, leaving other emotions in the wake

the river, road and rain hints of an accident that the person was involved in
"You have taken everything
Killed everything"
also hints at the accident killing everyone in the vehicle except him/her

the whole piece only hints and didnt really tell me anything clearly
except for the anger and grief of it

sorry if i am not helpful or wrong with my interpretation