My Rant do you really know me ?

Tell me do you really know me? not pointing any fingers just my Rant had to get it out. This is the real me Do you know me? written Sept. 5 2014

Do you know me like

my savoir does.

I've been betrayed by ones

that I  thought were Christians

and were pretending.

You're not the only

one so get off your

soap box seriously.

When I was in 12th grade

and still in high school I was

about 18teen,

I was also working some woman

I thought was Christian said if

I didn't go to church I'd go to

hell.

I called my grandmother and

best friend and asked her and she said

that was a lie.

And we are not allowed to

say that no real Christian that's

full of love  wouldn't do that she

wasn't all there I found out.

You may not think I've

not been through the same

pain as you.

Do you really know me like

Jesus does he has counted every

tear I've cried and struggle I've

been through.

So do you know me 

 I DON'T SHOVE

MY BEILEF DOWN

SOMEONES THROAT,

You don't really if

that is what you think of me.

My life was never easy

no one saw me as  normal

and THOUGHT I was stupid

when I wasn't all because  I was

ADD and I was called ugly

when I wasn't I had the biggest heart and I still do.

I am Honest loyal  truthful

I will always tell the truth I will show

love if you don't  my heart aches with love.

So do you really know me

Jesus knows when I was betrayed

by friends that were merely lesions

and he felt my pain.

God created me so if you

think I'll betray you you're wrong.

If someone is trusting and means

their word and has never betrayed you

or lied to you and if you can't trust

them then you can't trust yourself

not them.

I've been there god

has made me a stronger woman

and I love others so much I feel like

crying because it  is unconditional love Gods love.

So do you know people

treated me like I wasn't human

when woodchips were thrown at me.

I now stand up for ones

that are picked on I love ones that

seem different to others but are not.

So do you know me as my

Beautiful savior does?

My eyes saw love so the

negativity wasn't love in others.

And wanting someone when you

don't have that bubbly butterfly feeling

in your stomach.

When there is no love in the

heart it can be ugly and their attitude

is ugly too.

I'm thankful for my

family and friends.

Many see me as all together

and some days I just want to

cry and scream but god gives me

the strength to overcome it isn't easy.

But you're the safest place

to be Jesus where is your refuge

mines Jesus.

When my peace is gone

you cover me in your peace Jesus

and worry melts away.

So do you know me

do you think I am shoving

my belief down your throat now?

I've always been called my grandpas

little bottle of sunshine and Jesus is mine.

I will  stand up for you if it is

right I will pray for you be a listening

ear and I won't judge you I'll love you.

I won't be angry at you

I am always understanding.

I worship Jesus not a religion

Jesus is a relationship I was raised

around catholic belief but never trusted

it as it taught something's  I don't agree with.

Catholic churches  I felt no

presences of Jesus in  them I only felt

religion but not all churches are bad nor

are Christians  they must show love that is Jesus.

I was raised to be loyal Honest

respectful to respect my elders be

truthful I was always loving

so do you know me?

So do you really

know me truly?

We all have pain and trials

and we've all been betrayed so you're

not the only one.

We all feel pain and bleed red blood

feel and hurt eat sleep and breathe.

So you're not the only one

get that out of your head.

So do  you really know

me tell me truly?

Copyright Kindred poet/ Benita Staebell McCartney

 

Author's Note

Written Sept. 5 2014

Do you really know me?

This is the real me Do you know me?






Behind The Scenes - Francesca Battistelli

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Powerful and honest thoughts. I believe no-one knows me. I re-form to be someone who pay bills and enjoy time with the grandchildren. It is sad we close up the doors and accept less. I do like the poem. You ask questions. I talk to God daily. Thank him for good health and kids being healthy. Thank you dear Poet for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

Thank you this was from a experience and the pain just came out as a poem. your review and comments are appreciated. god bless. Benita

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome Benita.

[Bluefire]

I've heard this many times growing up, that no one knows us like Jesus does and it's true. He sees everything and knows us far better than we know ourselves.
I do believe that's a lie. That if you don't go to church you'll go to Hell. My mom told me that a very long time ago, there were no churches and people worshipped and prayed and praise the Lord in their own houses.
That is horrible, that those people threw things at you and treated you like dirt. That was the devil's doing right there. I'm sorry that happened to you =c
Well written, I like this rant. ^^

[Benita-Staebell M - KindredPoet]

This was inspired by someone's write on here that doesn't know me too well and thinks they're the only on that's been betrayed by non Christians pretending to be Christians, So they thought I was having my Belief down their throat and was stirred up by a godly poem of mine I know it was the devil. any how thank you. blessings. Benita/ kindred poet

[Bluefire]

No one's ever alone. I do believe that that was the devil, only he'd put that kind of thought into someone's head.
You're welcome. ^^