The Ages of Waking Up

The Ages of Waking Up

Six months old- I’m so hungry and wet! Mommmyyyyyyy!

Five years old- Where is my doll? I went to sleep with her! Are Mommy and Daddy awake yet? I’m hungry!

Ten years old- Saturday morning cartoons! I wonder who I will play with today? Are Mommy nd Daddy awake yet? Shhh! I can’t make a noise so I can watch TV! Wow! I’m hungry!

Thirteen years old- I’m awake! I can call him and we can talk all day on the phone-he is so funny! I can’t act like I like him though- I have to act cool! Are Mom and Dad awake YET, GOD! They are so annoying, they hate me being n the phone this early. I’ll eat some cereal, then I’ll call him!

Seventeen years old- Man, what time is it? Am I in MY bed? What time did I get home? I hope I didn’t wake Mom and Dad! I hate getting grounded! I’m so hungry, but not eating because I have to look cute! One cookie won’t hurt though, right? I hope he likes me. We can go to the same college and become doctors or lawyer together and get married and have babies! Yes, no food! Afterall, I’m marrying a Dr or lawyer someday and have to look good!

Twenty one years old- OWWWWW MY HEAD! I need water! I also need to move out of Mom and Dad’s house. They are so lame yelling at me just because I came home a little bit tipsy. Maybe tipsy me left me some pizza!

Twenty seven years old- I feel so happy and secure laying in his arms. I can’t believe we got married! I can’t believe I get to spend the rest of my life with him! I have to call Mom and Dad and thank them for throwing us such a beautiful wedding. First, I am making my husband breakfast though. My husband! Wow! I’m married!

Thirty years old- Wow what time is it? It’s still dark! I’m so tired! The baby got up four times since nine last night! I don’t know how he sleeps through the screaming- it’s like I’m the only one who made this baby! I guess I’ll feed the baby AGAIN. I do love our snuggles though- his little head smells so sweet.

Thirty five years old- I don’t want to wake up! If I wake up I know the pain will come. I want my Dad back! It was too soon! My heart is shattered! Is Mom up? I know she is- there is no way she even slept. Let me call her and tell her I’m on my way with coffee so we can start planning the funeral. No one is hungry today, just coffee. Daddy, please come back!

Forty years old- This bed feels so empty. It was not supposed to feel this way. What happened to forever? How am I supposed to tell the kids? He left that to me too, just like always- leaving me with all the responsibility. They might not even notice, he was hardly here anyway. I guess I should get up-the kids will be hungry.

Fifty five years old- awe, my grandson is crying! I love our nighttime feedings and chats! I know he is hungry! Grandma always knows! I just need a minute to sit up- my back and knees hurt a lot lately. Stupid knees!

Sixty years old- It’s too much! Mom! I need you back! Come back! Why! I can’t do this without you! You are my best friend! I love you! Come back Mom! Please Mom! Please oh my God Mom! Maybe if I go back to sleep and wake up, this will just be a bad dream. Mommy I need you. Please!

Seventy years old- I’m so warm and hungry. Where am I? Who are these people? Where is Mommy and Daddy? I’m hungry! Wait, I’m in the nursing home. I remember now. Hopefully the kids will visit. Where am I? I’m so warm. Mommy! Daddy!

Seventy five years old- Hi Mom and Dad! It’s been so long! I feel so light and happy and at peace! Awe, look at the kids ad grandkids- it’s ok, stop crying everyone, I’m ok now! I’m not in pain anymore! I remember everything too- what a beautiful life I had. It’s so nice here, don’t cry! I’m ok! I’m not even hungry!