Would you Be Proud of Me?

To my parents

Mother
Father
Would you be proud of me?
Of the man your little son has become?

Have you seen me?
From you perch in heaven
Have you seen the crimes
I've committed ?

Mother
Im sorry
I know you told me
Never to hurt another

Father
Im sorry
I know you told me
Drugs are hazardous to oneself

Would you both still be proud of me?
If you knew the deeds I have done?
The blood that will forever stain my hands.

Would you understand?
That I am a broken man.
That destruction was my distraction.

Would you be proud of me?
If you knew the misery
I have inflicted on countless others
And I didn't even care?  

Would you understand?
That I turned off my emotions.
Would you understand?
That that was the only way
For me to survive.

I don't have to ask anymore
I know the answer.
Im sorry

You both taught me better then this.

Author's Note

Rest in Peace Mother and Father