Significance Journal - 31.07.15

Dating is not what I used to think it was.  In dating this beautiful girl, I have realised I did not know what it was to feel true compassion and to give fortune.  I have established a heartfelt connection and offer myself wholly to her and I see her potential and enjoy her wholly, but I still struggle with my thoughts.  It seems though my values haven't fully adjusted to my new conditions, but it also appears I've become less demanding.  My communication remains sound and she seems to understand.

My struggles come down to when I hurt her and the level of my complete ignorance to it, my love for her is so strong that I will not stand idly by, even if it is myself committing it, when she's hurt or discoursed from productive development.  I have hurt her and I have found myself hurt both in ignorance and naivety, in the process of both I have dwindled in loss of collected thought which has influenced her to seemingly antagonise me.  

My aim is to avoid and eradicate this malcontentment and create a stable condition.