A Dead Girl Walking

A poem from the point of view of a suicidal teenager

Sunlight stains my room
Of gloom.
This is the place where sin commits and blood spits
Battered books and dried up pens
Finger smeared glass, when looks mattered.

Biscuit crumbs lodged in floorboards, blinds closed shut
becomes
Her sleepy eyelid, I shall not see
the life that grows on the ash tree
Or follow the pigtailed laugh and scream
As they chase the daisy-daydream.

In my wardrobe the snakes hiss around my neck,
Lucifer's grip, O this bliss kiss
Of her blessing, this cruel undressing as I peel the layers of my skin, with the help of my safety pin.

They say when it rains it pours,
But it's just my growing pains.
If they say life's a stage, then I'm the clown
Who will drown in God's tears
Swept away, from you
Along the river of 'someday'.

You've left me in the rubble
The last child to be picked up from school, a mistake I predict
A plastic chair, the comprehensive snare
The classroom roofs rise into the air like unmarked gravestones
They are the pave stones for our future hope
My narrowing noose tied from rope.

I will be a beautiful corpse
Beneath the sleeping pill petals of roses red and violets blue
"Who knew that she was thinking like this,
That she was sinking through quick sand, out stretched hand
Before you fall too far, out of reach
It's a figure of speech."
I've found my Zanzibar, shooting star, back seat in a speeding car
That fills my silent void, violent paranoid shrills to survive...

Look out beyond the sky,
O my the swifts fly high to catch the drifts of air
I breathe, again and again
Back when, I was alive

Author's Note

This might be triggering for some people, and I'm sorry if that is the case I wanted to share this to help people understand what it's like to feel this way. Thank you

Reviews

[Planet x]

Very powerful writing
You did made the reader understand your thoughts

[Joan Probst]

When I read this I find myself thinking about myself and I can relate. This gives a very good view into the mind of a suicidal teen that is very accurate.