DysphoriaA Story by Chris RambinA young teen sits with her psychologist to face the biggest challenge of her life-her mother. Sarah’s fingers fidget
nervously as her hands rest within her lap, her eyes staring down while she
waits. An audible buzz sounds from Sarah’s pocket, her hand digging the phone
out and activating the screen. Across the floral wallpaper, a text flashes with
a header that reads ‘Mom.’ Swiping over the text, Sarah unlocks her phone to
see the full message. Sorry David, just arrived, choir
practice ran a little late. Sarah rolls her eyes before exiting
out of the text and pressing the power button. The black screen reveals a near
transparent reflection of Sarah, causing her to pause. In the phone, dark blue eyes hide behind thick,
black-rimmed glasses. Long, curly brown hair flow over her shoulders, a clip-on
flower resting on the right side of her head. Light red lipstick expresses
Sarah’s soft lips, along with some eye shadow and blush, giving her face a
round, feminine look. Sighing, Sarah stuffs her phone back in her pocket before
looking up at the woman that sits across from her, the gray suit contrasting
against the white chair she sits in. “I don’t think I
can do this, Ashley,” Sarah replies, her hands moving to the sides and grasping
the edge of the white sofa she sits on. Raising a clipboard into her lap, Ashley shakes her head.
“Sarah,” she begins as she pulls her long, blonde hair back behind her. “The
only way to do this is by talking with your mother. Not only will this be a
good time to sway your mother, but you two can work out issues you have had
these last few months.” Sarah shivers on the spot, a brief memory of her mother
yelling at him, calling her a disappointment. Tugging her hair back, Ashley wraps a hairband around the
formed ponytail thrice before her hands return and pick up the clipboard once
more. Both Sarah and Ashley turn their heads as a firm knock rasps upon the
office door, a friendly smile forming on Ashley’s face as she got up. Approaching the door, she turns the knob and pulls. In
the doorway, an older woman wearing a long, conservative dress with floral
patterns adorning the skirting stands, a large purse hanging from her shoulder.
Her dark brown hair is tied back into a bun, helping in the expression of the
angular features of her face. “Mrs. Harris, it’s a pleasure to meet you. Thank you for
taking the time to come out today,” Ashley greets as she steps out of the way,
allowing the woman to enter the room. “Please, call me
Mallory,” the woman answers. Mallory looks around the small office before down
to Sarah, brief anger flashing across her face. “David!” she exclaims as she
opens her purse. “How many times have I told you not to leave the house like
that?” Mallory grabs a small wipe from the opened purse and leans down towards
Sarah to wipe at her face. Sarah yelps as she suddenly smacks Mallory’s hand
away, the memory of her mother smacking her with a wooden spoon flashing before
her eyes. “Mom, stop!” Sarah
yells, scooting back from her mother. “Mallory,” Ashley says in a calm tone as she gently pulls
on Mallory’s shoulder. She steps back as Mallory’s head whips around, her jaw
tense. “No, I will not
let my son walk around as a little girl,” Mallory says, her tone stern. “Mrs. Harris, both
Sarah and I asked you here to talk about this. Please allow us to talk and
settle this in a civil manner,” Ashley says in a neutral, monotonous voice,
losing the warm edge she had greeted Mallory with. “Jesus save me,”
the older woman sighs as she sits next to Sarah, who scoots further away from
her mother. “Now,” Ashley begins as she returns to her chair,
crossing her leg over her knee as she looks at the two women. “As you know,
Sarah chooses not to identify as David, or being male, but as Sarah and a
female. She has told me of instances that lead to fights.” Mallory glances over
at Sarah before her gaze returns to Ashley “Of course,” she
speaks. “Miss Ashley, this is merely a phase. David likes to dress up and put
make-up on, which is okay,” she says hesitantly. “But no, David is not ‘Sarah.’
God gave him testicles so that one day he can bring home a girl and give me
grandchildren, plain and simple. He’s normal.” Sarah turns her head, gripping the edge of the couch once
more. “Mom, I told you to call me Sa-“ Sarah stops as Mallory whips her head
around. “David, I swear to
God, I will whip you in front of this young lady, right here and right now!”
she yells, interrupting Sarah. “That’s enough!”
Ashley yells suddenly before sighing. “Mallory, you need to listen and talk to
your daughter. If anything, she needs you more than ever now,” she says as
Mallory huffs. “He needs to trust
in the Lord if anything,” she says before shaking her head. “But why am I here,
Ashley? To be told I’m a bad mother? I doubt you’re even a God-fearing woman,”
she chides. “M-mom, I want hormones,” Sarah speaks up, looking at
Mallory. “I’ve been working at the carwash for a while and saved up enough for
some, but I can’t get them without your consent…Please, I-“ Sarah stops short
as Mallory holds up her hand. “Out of the
question, David. The last thing I need the congregation to talk about is how
I’m raising a little f****t!” “Is that all you care about?! What the f*****g church thinks
of you?!” Sarah yells, standing up, feeling her face heat up. “It’s not what
they think, it’s what the Lord will judge when you and I go to heaven one day!
And he sure as hell doesn’t want a little boy that just wants to act like a
girl and suck dicks all day!” Mallory retorts. Sarah’s
hands clench into tight balls at her sides, every fiber of her body feeling on
fire. “F**k you!” Sarah screams before rushing past her mother, sending the
older woman onto the couch from the impact against her shoulder. “Sarah,
wait!” Ashley’s voice rings out, sounding concerned. Sarah chooses to drown it
out, fighting back tears as she charges down the hallway, sunlight drowning out
her vision as she bursts through the exit door of the building. © 2017 Chris Rambin |
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Added on November 1, 2017 Last Updated on November 1, 2017 Tags: Fiction, Family Drama, Transgender, Drama, Prose, Short |